Hey guys and gals. This is a quick one time post from me. Once I post this I am outta here for good.

Thanks for letting me back in for a brief time Sandy.

I made a terrible mistake last year. That mistake was giving more than just one or two additional staff members admin access to the board. I gave in to several here and went against my better judgment and once again my better judgement was right. I have come to the conclusion that the board cannot function as a group at the top trying to run everything. I should have kept my control over the most important admin functions and left the moderating to the rest of the staff, except for the one or two others to handle new memberships etc. and perhaps the guys doing the board templates etc. Every ship needs a captin. This board is no different. The state that it's in now is one in distress and it will sink in its present form.

I have been frequently told by other staff members that I am not aware of things that go on here because I leave to often and when I do come back I try to change things. Well here is my reason for this. It's THE STAFF. I leave simply because I cannot deal with some of you on a regular basis. For something that started out as fun turned into a nightmare for me. I wanted to be here often and participate but dealing with some gets to be too much. Often times my nerves were shot to hell because of some here. I would never take my breaks away if it had not been for some staff members. My personal connection to the board was severed for good a few months ago when my last nerve gave way when I was doing what I knew was the right thing and that was to completely remove a cancer from the board in **********.


I have to personally thank Ian for opening my eyes and ultimatly getting me to face the reality that is more than one admin at the top can't work. Ian, your a decent guy and you have a bright future, but you have some serious growing up to do. I hope your RECENT introduction into the workforce will allow you to work better with others,you have some strange nepolianic thing going on and you need to try to get a handle on it before it gets you into real trouble though. I hold no grudges against you Ian, but to be perfectly honest, you were the last straw here for me but please don't expect any more favors from me either so please don't list me as a personal reference because I cannot in good conscience speak to anyone about you.

Nan, I have gotten your emails and sorry I have not responded to them. I know you mean well but my disconnect from the staff here is an important part of my transition away from easternuswx.com. So please don't think this is something personal against you.

Randy, I briefly spoke with Sandy tonight and she said that you had me on a list as an attendie for the conference, thanks, but no thanks. I have to respectfully decline my invite to the event. Like I told you before, I am sure it will be a blast, you will do a fine job.

Back when I left a few months ago I had a long message I was about to post about me leaving but I thought better of it but the gist of it was that I had a tough decision to make. Leave the board like I did or take control again of what is my creation, make things right the way I think they should be in order to right the ship, take control of the reigns so to speak and piss some of you off in the process. Go through the "I am leaving" bit from some of you out in the public and just have a whole other mess on the hands of the staff.
I was even asked by some staff members to do just that and take control again of what is obviously a failing venture, but I choose not to do it because the disruption would have been emmense because of some of the personalities here. In the end I obviously decided to just give in and drop it.

Part of me is hurt inside so bad, I see the board running an old, serious security risk version of the software, and part of me wants to jump in, start working on things again etc. Upgrade the service with a new addtional server so it can handle 1000's of users, enjoying chat with you guys and just goofing off. But I just can't do it any longer.

I will probably come back and browse like I said in my last message here when winter approaches but thats about it.

I have enough money to keep the board server up and running til the end of 2007. Once the cash is gone I am not sure what I am going to do. I won't ask the membership here for any more money through donations. (Scott, can you please remove the paypal link at the bottom of the page.) I have been approached in recent months about selling the board and I am entertaining some of these offers. But nothing like this will happen until the end of 2007 when the operating funds run dry.

Randy and Sandy, you have my phone number and email. If you need to contact me for anything please don't hesitate to call. I have been extremely busy with work lately so if I don't answer right away, I WILL get back to you.

Those of you trying to reach me via MSN chat and cannot it is because I have everyone from the board blocked (Randy, I had to delete your account outright because of your MSN names and I have three people looking at it now). I did this because one of my new contracts requires that MSN chat be open so that I can receive messages from my client. Through out the day I would receive instant messages and it would affect how we deal with this new clients instant messages (one of us here has to get to them very quickly.)

I hope that this message at least answers some of the questions that some of you might have had about the direction my life is now taking. I was not going to come back and post but Sandy wanted me too so here I am.

Take care everyone, enjoy the conference in July and I hope you all stay well and safe.

I don't normally want to air dirty laundry of the board, but I have stayed silent on the issue too long.

I wish we could have had someone leading that wasn't insane, but we lucked out. Oh well... life goes on.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
I don't know what the future holds, but I am confident that good will prevail.
I also hate losing. If the members have the commitment to stay with the core staff no matter what we will pull a rabbit out of the hat. I can assure you of that.

Marcus needs to sell the board ASAP

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
I don't know what the future holds, but I am confident that good will prevail.
I also hate losing. If the members have the commitment to stay with the core staff no matter what we will pull a rabbit out of the hat. I can assure you of that.

I don't normally want to air dirty laundry of the board, but I have stayed silent on the issue too long.

I wish we could have had someone leading that wasn't insane, but we lucked out. Oh well... life goes on.

Considering the members are the lifeblood of that forum, and have funded it... I think they have a right to know what is going on with the server that they bought and paid to run in the hopes that the board would continue to thrive and grow.

You and Bob should grow some balls. It's a bit loserish to leave and then air dirty laundry. First of all you still hold a moderator mask even though you say you delmoted yourself.

Instead of trying to be a martyr maybe you could work WITH us instead of AGAINST us. But whatever.

You and Bob should grow some balls. It's a bit loserish to leave and then air dirty laundry. First of all you still hold a moderator mask even though you say you delmoted yourself.

Instead of trying to be a martyr maybe you could work WITH us instead of AGAINST us. But whatever.

lol, remove it. I'll say whatever I want, I'm not going to hide my true feelings regarding this matter anymore. One day you will understand.

you sound like Kev Jr

Well, it's bullshit that Brian is trying to pretend like there is no reason for me to speak my mind after this has continued for months and months.

Grow some balls

What is it with the personal attacks with some of you?

I agree with Ian on this one.

Well, it's bullshit that Brian is trying to pretend like there is no reason for me to speak my mind after this has continued for months and months.